You can call this a song lyric, and it somehow is closed to how I felt when my relationship with my best friend broke. It was written by my classmate. I do know that my personality is a bit hot-heated and I just can't take it when I see something is wrong. Today after my training, I saw plastic bottles that are used to contain the cold drinks being thrown all over the ground by my juniors. I was furious but I tried to cool down and went to picked up all the litters and throw them to the recycle bin. Oh and I'm very impatient, if I give someone a limit time to finish what they should do, if they exceeded it, I would just walk away. So the break up between my friend was also part of my fault. Friendship is fragile like a flower, a little pressure could break it. Treasure your friendship everyone.

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Everyday I cry myself to sleep, 
Who do you think was the one who was in fault
Who do you think was the one who made my life hard

I'm struggling and screaming for help, 
but you didn't even came to help.

Who was the one who said that she would come if I cry out for her
Who was the one who caused me to be emotionless to everything.

Did you think I would be fine if you left me alone
The me that is standing in front of you is no longer
The me you knew a long long time ago 
 
The me now is a blade that was sharpened by your words and actions
The glamour on the blade was polished by my tears

I've thrown the past away to create a new beginning 
a future without a past can't be called as a future. 
So don't try to say that you knew me as others will think you are insane
If I don't respond to the clap

Just give up on thinking that we might still continue from where we stopped
as I've lost my trust in you. 
Just treat our friendship as a dream. 
Sweet dreams to you.

I was shown this video by our teacher today. I couldn't find the other video which talks about how they build their school, and how lives of those children are. Japan and South Korea export all their rubbish to Indonesia because they are not so wealth off, I just feel that it was selfish and the reality is just like the way it is because of power. Japanese and South Korea has more politic power than Indonesia, and they could just do whatever they like. If the government say so, the citizen can rebel and strike all they want, but in the end they just had to accept the choice made by the government for them. Why is the world base on power and money? When you have the money and power you could do anything you want, while the poor and weak just had to keep quiet. The environment for the children isn't what they want but if they are born in that country he/she is in that country. The poor do not have the money to immigrate to other countries to have a better life. What could we do for the poor using our own abilities?

I went to Daiso ($2 shop), where it sells every item at the price of $2. When one's hear $2 for a $3++ item, they would say it is cheap. But when you keep shopping and throwing more things you desire into your basket. At the end, when you are going to checkout, you will realize that the amount that you spent is a lot. Desire can control one, but needs is more important. Always place your needs in front of your desire and also set a budget before you shop. I spent about $30 on buying 15 items, which was a bit of shocking for our family as we do not spend much when we are in Daiso, not sure why we did it though. But we managed to get rid of some items which led us to checking out our stuff at $24. Try to compare the price before you buy something, unless it is urgent.

I just saw a garbage truck going block to block to collect rubbish. When the passersby saw the truck coming towards their direction, they quickly ran to another pathway where the stench of the rubbish couldn't reach. It was as if they were running for their lives, I just continue strolling towards the MRT (Mass Rapid Transit). I was thinking that they weren't brave and if a beggar fall down on a street they would still continue walking and avoid the beggar. There are foreigners helping us to do this job since our country has nobody who would dare to do it, even if the pay is high. That's the reason why the rate of foreigners in our country keeps getting higher and higher each year. The workers dare to help us tidy our rubbish daily, so why can't we do it? Because we are afraid of the stench? We can always get used to it. When I smelled the rubbish truck, it just feel like I'm just smelling a bowl of mix food. The rubbish are what we used or leftover, we throw rubbish into a bag and place it in the rubbish chute, but why nobody would want to help empty the rubbish chute? Some may have ate Taiwan Stinky Tofu, which is like ten times worst then the rubbish smell, I thought. Will we still lean on foreigners to do jobs that we don't want to in the future?

I know I keep saying this in my web though.Everyone's story is different, some may be a fairy tale with a happy ending, while some may be a tragedy with lots of misery. What's yours? Must one's life be so tough? Why can't we just have a day that belongs to us with no stress with no orders? Stress has already became a part of our life, we can't put it down unless our life has ended. When you are ill, you stress about the bills.When you are working, you stress about your salary, worrying if you would be fired when crisis hits your country. When you are studying, you are stress about your results and homework. What if you only have a day left, what will you do? Stay in your cozy bed? Go to the beach? Travel overseas? Gather with family members? Writing your will? A life is fragile yet strong at times. Your life is in your hands, you can reject or accept what others give you. The hurdles that we meet in our lives are sometimes to high that it suffocates you, but if you managed to find a solution, you will realize that you still have a long way to go. I know I keep saying this in my web though, but still you must CHERISH TODAY, EVERY SECOND, EVERY MINUTE...