Goodbye to 2013. The curtains rises for a new story to be played. A new journey, a new setting, a new atmosphere, a new year. This year being the final year for me, the most important year of my 4 years in school, new challenges comes up. With the importance of study and time management, I have to survive this year. After that it'll be a relieve and then A levels. Although it may seem ridiculous and impossible target for most, I believe I'll be able to do it. Scoring As for all my subject. Both my piano grade 8 practical and theory exams are this year too. Well I guess I got to strive harder and make sure I get enough sleep too. This year would be special too, I got a partner to work together. Well, though we may have different dreams but at least we are supporting each other. The other is more patient, more forgiving, more optimistic (in some ways), more of a party animal, more of a shopper (haha, yeah I don't shop much), more calming (tries to calm someone who is panicking down), more silent (in speech but not in words), less playful (then me), even stricter in timetables(I don't follow my timetable even though I planned them), more look out for others (which I most of the time don't) and more. Well, we didn't really restrict to going to the same school in the future but we will still have the weekends free for ourselves. We'll see how this year work. Well, I'm just going to gear up and fight till the last day of exams (words from my form teacher mouth)! This year will be rough but memories will be treasured.

Well another thing I learnt today. Never rely on others to help you. You have only yourself to rely sometimes. Well I was supposed to take my grade 8 exam next year March. Every piano lesson I ask my teacher whether do I need to sign up already. Her reply was always " Relax, still got a long time to go." However, the date line was 11th Oct 2013. It was my mum who notify me to check it on ABRSM website. I was totally horrified. I can't take my exam on Oct 2014, I'll be having my O Levels by then, I barely manage this year. So, how in the world am I supposed to manage it next year? I don't have a clue. The teacher gave an excuse to my mum saying it's because my rhythm isn't stable yet. Well I thought one of the person who would knew me well would understand my pain. Well, that person disappointed me. That person just thought it as a joke and did not understand the pain in my heart. When I went to my parents and told them about this. They knew my troubles they are the one who actually calm that little baby in me down.They told me this " If someone think u can't do it, well just double what u are doing now. And prove them wrong." Well I'm definitely will do that, placing more effort I guess. Pushing myself to the maximum. If I get stressed out, I'm just going to scream. Guess the final lap to the new beginning starts now.

How does jealously feel like? I know he does not belong to me, but my heart aches every time he's near me. I know my restrictions well, I know my boundaries. But I'm afraid I'll cross the line. I have my rules laid out and my parents' too. Not sure how long I'll be restricted before it gets into me and I try to break free forcefully. I do not wish to see that side of me. A girl whose toy have been taken away from. All I could do everyday is to remember we are only BFFs he isn't mine. I don't want to play Othello inside of me, having more black then white pieces. Does being jealous give off a sour feel? I'm always feeling a throb in my heart. Guess I better prepare my Pandora box before the apocalypse arrive.

Well, after my legs were healed after the fall. Now my right index finger is sprained. And what's worse is that it's the exam period, wish my luck. I was playing  rugby during physical education. We were playing under the hot sun at the field. Just then my friend passed me the ball, but he threw too high and I couldn't see where the ball was as the sun was shinning into my eyes. I almost caught it but the force was too large and my index finger was bent and caused me to hurt my finger. Not sure what my piano teacher will say about me this Saturday. It definitely is a bad thing for a pianist for their fingers to be injured... Hope that u all will take good care of yourself >< Till the next time then!

Well I fell down on Monday. My school shoes got stuck onto something and when I pull it, I lost my balance and... WOLA! I kneeled down with my right hand supporting my body. I thought it was just some minor scratch. But when I continued to walk... I felt my legs watery, when I looked down I have "2 stream of red river" I was shocked at that moment and no passersby told me about it! Urgh! I asked for a piece tissue from someone and she kinda said that I could take the whole packet as 1 isn't enough to stop the blood. She helped me to ask others for more tissue>< what a kind soul! I stammered and walked towards the information counter and asked them whether they have first aid kit or not. I felt embarrassed when I was walking as everyone was staring at me, but who cares I'm treating my injuries okay! I went to see the doctor the next day and the nurse place a sponge thingy to absorb my blood and all the random things for both knees. She told my not to unwrap it for 3 days as there is medicine on the gel on the surface of the sponge. Yesterday was the 3rd day and I went to unwrap my dressing and now... I have thin pieces of silver on my knees. And it hurt even worse. The nurse said that silver reacts with bacteria and it will kill the bacteria. Will be back to the nurse in another 3 more days. The pain still isn't subsiding..." Take care and don't fall down nor get sick guys!!