Well, since I said that there is no happy, colourful, joyful heaven or such. The only think that you can do or probably what we can do is to have a happy life now. But, there is no perfect life, there IS happy life, everyone has the rights and it is free to have it. It isn't a crime to have it, no one will die of it, no body will go after your life either. Enjoy every minute and second of your life. As the hour glass starts to empty, you can feel the empty part with you joy, happiness. Something that others can't see but can feel it. A journey in your life can be mysterious, cruel, kind, hard, strange, complex, twisted. But all this can change just by you, yourself. Do not think that you are just a small little human out of the billions and billions of people from the whole world.I can't tell you how you should live your life, only you have the rights to control the way you wish it would be. The hurdles that you come upon when you are trying to achive your goal. But you can have fun along too, you will meet friends that will help you along the way, you will meet enemies that will help you to grow stronger in your mind strength. All these can be succeeded if you have just ONE thing, a strong mind that will never waver by others. If others can't change your mindset, you can actually succeed in what you wish. But, sometimes listen to others comment as there are knowledge that you can take from them. There are many 'open books' around you. You can learn knowledge from them, have a new discovery, a new adventure. So, take a step and plan your target, taking a step at a time upwards!